I would like to make a note before you all read this: THIS IS NOT A PLEA FOR PEOPLE TO TELL ME I'M SPECIAL. This is a stating of facts.
I also apologize to non-blogging readers, because this is kind of blogger-centric. I'll make sure the next one isn't. ;)
So, I'm going to assume I'm not the only one with major personality issues. Pretty much, if there's something to be insecure about, I will be. I'm one of the most...well not self-loathing, but self-doubting? people. I consider myself so amazingly average in pretty much every way. (She says while singing along to 'Just the Way You Are'.) Blogging isn't an exception.
A lot of the time, I'm proud of this little blog. No, we don't have the amazing numbers some blogs have and no we didn't grow the way some blogs did in the same amount of time. But over 600 followers is nothing to turn my nose at and I know you're all reading because you genuinely like what we provide and not because we have a ton of contests or whatever. But some days...
Some days I can't help but wonder WHY so many people follow us. I mean...are we really that original? Are we really putting out anything so spectacular that no other blog puts out there? Are all 600+ of you going to realize we aren't that special and just unfollow us one day?
I mean, I like to think we try to contribute something. But is all we're contributing our overabundance of sarcasm? Our occasional discussion posts like this one? Because I definitely notice a jump in followers when we post a really interesting discussion post. Some of our most viewed posts include our Speak Loudly post (the more personal version, aka the one that scared the crap out of both of us to post), Lanna's Hunger Game casting, and her How to Make a Button post.
Or are you only all here because people far cooler than us decide to be our friends and recommend your follow us? Or because sometimes authors like to say we don't suck? Or because I sometimes make semi-intelligent comments in twitter discussions? Yeah, I often wish that whenever you have to follow a blog, you have to say why/how you FOUND that blog.
I tell myself that clearly there's a reason everyone follows us and like I said, most days I believe in our little blog. And when I have small doubts, usually I can talk to someone who will yell at me and tell me to stop being stupid. But some days, I can't shake the feeling of just being average.
Does anyone else ever feel overwhelmingly average or amazed at so many people caring what they say? How do you put the feeling down?
See, I pretty much put the majority of people following the blog down to Julie. She's the awesome one, she's the one who gets most involved in all the blogging community stuff and talks to everyone on twitter and all that. She writes the best reviews and I'm pretty sure if we counted them up, she probably wrote the most too. I'm not sure I'd still even be blogging still if it wasn't for Julie being my co-blogger.
I don't see my way of thinking as insecurity... self-deprecating, a little, maybe - but it doesn't make me feel bad. I'm just happy people follow the blog and comment and seem to like what we post, I don't stress too much about why people follow. I'd be just as happy with 10 followers as I would 10000.
So yeah, I think it's awesome that people follow the blog but I tend to credit the majority of our followers to Julie anyway, so I don't have a lot of "Why do people follow us, I'm not that special?" moments of self doubt. :)